Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Christopher Stevenson
Christopher Stevenson

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